Fanning the Flame Within Back to LIfe

sephia photography of desk lamp lightened the gray typewriter on wooden table

Parable of the Lamp from Mark 4:21-23 NLT

Then Jesus asked them, “Would anyone light a lamp and then put it under a basket or a bed? Of course not! A lamp is placed on a stand, where its light will shine. For everything hidden will eventually be brought into the open, and every secret will be brought to light. Anyone with ears to hear should listen and understand.”

 

“Where its light will shine.” As I read this scripture, this is the phrase that lifted off the page to me. I have meditated on how these words were speaking to me. 

I have spent years putting my light under a basket, hiding it from the world. Every once in awhile, I would take it out and put it on a stand, where it would shine. 

Eventually, I would switch focus off the light and put my attention on those that are being helped by the light. I would then start to notice how they are responding to the light. If they were hiding from the light, I would begin to wonder why. Was it something I did? Is it me?

Then I would think, maybe they don’t like my light, perhaps they think my light is too bright. Maybe I should hide my light under the basket again. Who am I to think I can keep my light out on the table?

 All of these false statements have gone through my head and my heart from time to time when I am brave enough to let my light shine. 

The light within me comes from my connection to Jesus. But the lies that tell me that I am not good enough to let my light shine, come from the pain of my past, from emotional wounds that had not healed from when as a child people made fun of me and my artistic endeavors, which had a significant impact on the creative spirit within me.

How can I, as a grown woman, allow these old tapes to play in my head and my heart and enable them to dictate who I believe I am today. How can I let these events from my past cause me to hide in shame when I let my light shine?

My light comes from Jesus, and when I allow my light to shine, others will benefit from that light, as I do. The light within me is not about me; it is about letting the light of Jesus shine within me into the darkness that is all around us. 

 

Dear Jesus, 

Please heal these old childhood wounds that have tried to change who I know I am in You. You are the light within me. I give you these old wounds and bring them into your healing light. Heal me so I may be brave enough to allow your light to shine through me. Please fan the Flame you placed within me back to life, so I may live the life you chose for me. I love you. 

Amen